I started off at 19 in online rooms for women in college. And somehow I ended up talking with a man in his 50s also on for women.
After about 20 minutes of talking he said he needed to go for the day but.. I should get naked for him instead. I froze in that moment, but he persisted. And next thing I knew my shorts were on the floor. I remember his next words very well… “all of it”
That was the first time, but definitely not the last time an older man got me naked. I felt that it was the attention that I loved. Someone showing me attention and enjoying my body. I had religious upbringing so I dealt with the guilt each time I’d come.. sometimes live for them when they asked.
I think the attention idea went out the window later when I was on dating apps. Found myself, when I was in a mood, switching to men. Older of course. I’d match, which was exhilarating because that was my face and name attached to convos. I never met, and I was always forward about me being only sexually attracted and not into men in a dating way. Some enjoyed that because I was a source of free jerk material and convos. And I was straight. Or at least id tell myself that.
There was a time I told myself the curiosity would stay that way… or would go away as soon as I found the woman I was meant to be with.
Well, I found her and yet the curiosity didn’t go away. In fact it got stronger until I finally gave in at the end of December in 2022. So I just passed my third anniversary of the first day I fell to my knees and cheated for cock. And I’ve been addicted to that feeling ever since.
I’ve still only done it four times, but it is indescribable, that feeling of being on your knees for another man who is older than you. Being submissive to him and taking his cock in your mouth. The gagging noise my throat makes when he hit it deep.. I always assumed those were fake. Turned out they weren’t. And I felt like a bitch, his bitch, every time he forced that noise out of me. It was ecstasy.
The moment his cock breached my lips I was hooked. I went from unsure I could go through with it to gagging on him as I took him as far as I could. Now I desperately need more. I challenged cock and it won. I’m forever a cocksucker!
